TEARS OF CHANGE

 

[ Grief is not always bad ]

They told me with grief comes growth,

but they didn't tell me how growth comes with grief. 

A grief that eats at my confidence, 

not fully,

 not all at once, 

but slowly, 

like an undetected parasite.

This grief is healthy. 

HOWEVER

It is the grief that forces me to say goodbye to the things that no longer serve me.

The things that no longer align with who I am and where I am right now.

This grief is called Tears Of Change.

It is inevitable.

I cannot grow a garden with the same soil that killed my crops. 

The mastery of this grief leads to unshakable confidence that can deplete if I am not aware of where I plant myself as a seed. 

The sun is there in order for me to enjoy the rain.

HOWEVER

This grief is not as easy as I constructed these words. 

It is draining, 

eats at my soul,

builds my character, 

puts my pysche under immense challenges.

Therefore 

The power of growth should never be underestimated, 

Because it will bring another level of grief

I have not prepared myself for.