Soulfood Sundays

  [ sometimes writing is breathing ] I'm learning that I'm healing and everyday won't look the same. I'm learning that healing does not look like a stainless glass , that has been cleared of all visible stains.  I'm learning that I'm healing and some patterns might still circulate but cycles are meant to be broken and it doesn't happen overnight. I'm learning that I'm healing therefore I have to forgive myself for only surviving with what I was equipped with and the knowledge I had absorbed. I'm learning to forgive myself , in a manner that makes my healing forgive those who have hurt me. I'm learning that I can never heal through another human being because medication is sold at pharmacies and traumas , anger and triggers are not what you prescribe to those around you. I'm learning that I'm healing , therefore I want to apologise to those I dug graves for whilst they were still alive , hosting funerals for their souls that I crushed ...